I am officially on winter break which means that I can start to post things to my YouTube channel. The huge issue with all of this is that I really dont know what I want to do. I truly want to be myself on YouTube since school kind of limits me from that but I dont know how i could go along doing that with trying to find things to upload. When winter break is over I wont have time to do anything YouTube related so my efforts could be considered a waste of time. I have plans of trying to do collegiate esports although with how my future is going to be set i dont think that could happen either. Regardless I just feel like I wont truly be able to do anything without things being considered a waste. I want to do tons of things but it wont work out at this rate. What could I do?